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A Literal Shit Show

January was a good month for me career wise. My book is now stocked in an adorable book store in Portugal and it was featured in an article on Hello Magazine’s website. I was buzzing off my tits.

 

But, as Ronan Keating once said, “Life is a rollercoaster. Just gotta ride it.” Well, Ronan hun I would like to get off this damn rollercoaster please. I do not like it. Sometimes, it’s more of a rollercoaster that is controlled by apes and they’ve just spotted a banana. Can you not please, Sir.

 



I’ve made it no secret that I suffer with stomach issues. I have done so for over ten years, but in the last year or so it has gotten so much worse. My anxiety stops me going out as it is and now I don’t want to leave the house in case I shit my pants, so that’s always fun. I am such a delight. Also, another reason I don’t want to make plans with anyone as I don’t know how I will be feeling that day. We could meet up in this cute toilet I saw the other day. Will that work?

 

After many doctors trips, tests and one doctor telling me I was putting too much hope on a poop sample and that I was fine, they diagnosed me with Crohn’s Disease which is a form of Inflammatory Bowel Disease. Yay me. Take that and put it with my poop and smoke it Doc!

 

After waiting what seemed like an eternity, being in pain every day, living on the toilet (TMI I know, soz huns), and feeling exhausted and drained, it was one of those situations where you didn’t want them to find anything but you also wanted them to so they could treat you and make you better. I was actually so stressed at the thought they would say I was fine and just leave me in this state. It’s like when you get blood tests done because you are constantly feeling tired and they come back clear with no further action. Okay, that’s great babes but I still feel like this so???

 



There is no cure for Crohn’s but there is medication that can help. I am almost a week into my new meds and haven’t shit my pants yet but it’s still early days and it is only Wednesday lols. They are making me feel super sick and giving me mega stomach pains for an hour or so after I take them but if they work I am all in.

 

As a writer (I can say that now I have a book published hehe), I always write about my life. I’ve shared many happy and shit times (no pun intended), so I thought it was only right to share this.

 

I also wanted to share it for those going through something similar or anything really, keep going to your doctors. Don’t take no for an answer. We always put things off because we feel we will be fobbed off but please go and kick their ass, not literally I cannot give you an alibi.

 

I hate having to say this but this is not a boohoo poor Nikki blog post. Haters gonna hate, potatoes gonna potate. Hopefully it gives someone the push to get their butt to the doctors. I am fully aware there’s so many other people in this world with bigger problems than me, but, your own problems are still your problems and have an impact on your life no matter what is going on in the world.

Plus, it’s a PSA that if you see me shit my pants in the street, you’ll know to look away and give me thoughts and prayers during this time lols. I’m laughing but if this actually happened I would be digging a hole for me and my shit and you’ll never see me again.

 



If you have Crohn’s and want to share your story with me or if you have any tips etc, my DMs and emails are always open. Let's exchange shit stories, it will be fun.

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